Can't sleep

(30 April 2011, around 12:30am)

We consisted of 5 people (Kak Mira, My twins sister, Ling, Jue and I) were did some "sport". We were about to challenge with each other. So, we formed a group based on the "lucky draw". I got number 1, and the same were happen to Kak Mira and Ling too. While My twins sister and Jue got number 2. Then after it, we moved to 6th floor (At first we planned to start from 3rd floor, but we don't wanted to take a risk since the guard were patrol around.) 

On the moment when we started, I felt exciting and enjoy with this activity. Although this sounds silly, but at least this makes me happy. Without think any possible sequences, I kept jogging until I reached the vision...

Hehe.. Not only that... In the same time, I felt proud of them too, because they're willing to participated in this activity. I'm quite happy to see Jue was joined too, although she was always lack of confidence level.  Although Jue and my twins sister, Jessy were lose, but I hope they were never give up. 

(In my thought now)

Hmm... I Can't sleep now because my brain not allow me to do so. In a few minute later, I think that I might  fall asleep, Hehe......

Ads4buck

Hehe... Anyway it's almost a month I joined this network site. Well, I still didn't get back my modal. Well, I'm now still on the learning process.
Thanks to Widi, Sis Fifie and Bro Shah, coz they willing spent their time to coach and teach me. I'm really apreciate on it, and thus, it's make me felt more better.

Don't Worry my upline,  I will strive my best to do on it. I will never give up :)

Tomorrow- 20 th April 2011

Tomorrow 20th April 2011,  The day of my english drama presentation. I kinda feel nervous and a little tension on it. Honestly I don't get ready yet for this presentation and I'm totally lack of confidence. I can boost up my confidence, but this time I don't know what kind of factors causing me to be like this. 

Might be,

It still new;

Might be,

I'm not ready;

Might be,

I'm inexperience;

And Might be,

I'm affraid.

Independent

2004. The years that I started to move far away from my beloved family. Who's the one making decision? All is my Family. Yes, I must admit that I kinda feel excited when I could move far away from my family. At least, No one control me, and I'm free to make my own decision.  

In the begining, I thought that I could live in a happiness. Rule is rule, and I forced to follow their own made rules. Yeah I know they did this for my best, but unfortunately I cant accept it. 

As long as I remember, I'll write it... [Hehe, this memory just passed by in my mind, I'm not fooling around :P]

Well, back to 

12 APRIL 2011

My EBV withdraw $$ was finally "arrived" to my CIMB account Bank. At first I'm excited, but.....

ITS ONLY CAN BE PROCESS AFTER A DAY!! WTH...

Btww, I take this as a Test of life. I just hope today time will faster runs up. 

And when I have $$, I wanna buy a guitar! So long enough I'm waiting for it, and finally i have a chance!

Deaf?

You are deaf is it? Did you understand what am I talk just now? If yes, then reply. If not, why dont ask?
Is it hard for you to express your feeling?
You know, I'm tired. Seems like I'm talked to the wall, not you.

Topic

I just knowing that it's hard to talk with you. Come on, just speak. Dont be shy with your own thought and just express your word.

I dont want to blame or hate you. But please, concern on other and yourself. Don't stress up yourself ok.

Sorry

Sorry banyak2 klu post yang seblm ni terguris hati ko. Bukannya saya benci ko. Klu saya britau ko confirm ko sakit hati.  

[I know. I should give you time. Ok, so I let you made your own decision. ]

[Saya tidak boleh tengok orang di sekeliling saya merana. Bukan apa. Klu saya tengok diaorg sedih, sy pun akan ikut sedih juga. Klu ko happy, sy pun happy juga. Sebab tu lar sy tidak berhenti untuk bagi korang advise. Cuma, kadang2 diri sendiri terasa penat jugalar.]

Cubalah hidup dengan happy. Saya sendiri pun ada problem, tapi saya anggap itu sebagai ujian dan lumrah hidup saja. Come on, janganlah buang masa melayan perasaan sendiri, sebab klu terlampau layanpun takut2 nanti jadi gila. Cubalah fikir macam mana nak selesaikan masalah. Think positif, and please make your life more better and meaningful. 

can't tahan

Kenapalah? susah sangat ka mau sharing problem ko tu? Susah sangatkah kau mau cakap? Malu sangatkah mau minta tolong? 

Kenapa Kalau jumpa budak lelaki, terutama hensem boy ko "active" sangat? kenapalah ko di bilik ko diam macam batu? Bila orang tanya ko ada problem atau tidak, ko cakap tiada? Tapi muka ko tu ketaralar ko ni BANYAK PROBLEM. 

Ko ingat ko ni COOL sangatkah? Ko ingat MASALAH ko ni SERIOUS sangatkah? 

Kadang2 kan, gaya ko ni bikin panas orang juga bah! Ko langgar orang, cakap sorry pun tidak. Nasiblar saya ni jenis yang tidak cepat panas baran.Yalah mungkin ko tidak sedar ko langgar saya.. Siapa suruh ko terlampau layan perasaan sendiri! Yang rugi diri ko sendirilar!!

Cubabah ko fikir bagus2. Apa yang ko dapat klu ko terlampau layan perasaan ko? ko fikir siok btul ka? TERIMALAH HAKIKAT! 

CUBALAH JADI MATANG SIKIT! ORANG PUN PENAT SUDAH MAU BAGI KO NASIHAT, SAYA NI PUN BUKAN SENANG SANGAT. 

ORANG CAKAP MACAM NI PUN DEMI KEBAIKAN KO, HARAP2 KO NI PUN FAHAM2 LAH PERASAAN ORANG LAIN.

Please lar. BILA ORANG LAIN TELEPHONE, AT LEAST KLU KO TAK MAU ANGKAT, TUTUP LAR PHONE TU! KO BUAT CAM TU BUAT ORANG GERAM JAK!!! Ko tidak tau kah , Suara ko tu TAJAM SANGAT! KLU KO TAU CONTROL SIKIT LAR!!! BIKIN PANAS JAK!!!

SAYA TIDAK TAHU LAR, KO CAKAP BAHASA KO MEMANG KASAR CAM TU. TIIDAK TAHU LAR INI IALAH ALASAN ATAU SEBALIKNYA. KO SENDIRI PUN SUDAH BESAR BAH, TIDAK PAYAH ORANG AJAR APA TU ADAB.

KLU SAYA TULIS, GERENTI SATU HARI PUN TIDAK SIAP. TENGOK JAK LAR SAMPAI MANA SAYA BOLEH TAHAN SAMA KO. 

FED UP SUDAH MAHU BAGI KO NASIHAT. LANGSUNG TIADA RESPONS!!!